yesterday awake:
floating down the river, lots of big birds, very cold as the sun went down under the trees
disappointed friends as plans fell through- my forgetting
yesterday asleep:
traveling to another time with the hobags. when we were 22 for a summer, to all be together in a town and get jobs. we all woke into this place without a home, snuck into some guys house and slept in his guest room without him knowing. he found us in the am and asked how old we were. he was 28. i said in the future i am 28 but right now i am 22.
i was modeling and not as good as the other girls at posing. i was naked, greg was supporting me, in public, and didn't feel embarrassed or ashamed. people were doing headstands on platforms in the water. i went to try even though it looked hard. manatees were in the water. a lama held me in the water and asked why my left thumb was cracking. he looked deep into my eyes with concern. i said it was old. he scratched blemishes and pimples off my face. there were a lot.
there was a school. a asian female teacher of ASL and younger education, and an older black male teacher of writing and beer brewing. i wanted to be in the education class. i was signing and talking to someone on a tv screen. i signed WOW with both hands and was fooling around. she kicked me out of class. i went to the other class. i was tasting beer. he had so much to teach. i was intimidated.
my mom. something about my mom.
Monday, August 8, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
yesterday awake: i asked myself at the sink; could this be a dream? no. day 2 of my 30 day personal yoga challenge. i awakened my fingers and wrists.
last night asleep: i looked down at my feet and had tattoos all up my feet to my ankles. i thought to myself, when did i get a tattoo? i don't remember it hurting. i asked greg- when did i get these? i decided that i got them in a dream of some kind because i had no memory of them. we went to a restaurant. i got up and went to a table near ours and took their order. i recommended my favorite dish and they both ordered it. i told the waitress who was a friend from high school what i did. she was mad. i went outside. there was a huge mossy tree with a river flowing down it. i stood in the river in the tree.
last night asleep: i looked down at my feet and had tattoos all up my feet to my ankles. i thought to myself, when did i get a tattoo? i don't remember it hurting. i asked greg- when did i get these? i decided that i got them in a dream of some kind because i had no memory of them. we went to a restaurant. i got up and went to a table near ours and took their order. i recommended my favorite dish and they both ordered it. i told the waitress who was a friend from high school what i did. she was mad. i went outside. there was a huge mossy tree with a river flowing down it. i stood in the river in the tree.
Monday, July 11, 2011
when will the hide and seek end?
yesterday i saw you in the shaman's eyes
he told me to sit down
but i could only stay a second
i had to stay with the group
i didn't want to take you seriously
in front of
all
those
people
running away from home is like that
yesterday i landed hard on the doorstep
and now i wish i had let you in
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
if i held a sign like yours
mine would read "afraid."
i can read between the lines
on your cardboard sign
"vulnerable."
"invisible."
if i weren't afraid i would say
"hi."
"i see you."
"i am sorry that you are suffering."
instead i look ahead
separated by a pane of glass and nothing more
i have change
but will not let it go
every red light in this town
forces me to stop
and see
mine would read "afraid."
i can read between the lines
on your cardboard sign
"vulnerable."
"invisible."
if i weren't afraid i would say
"hi."
"i see you."
"i am sorry that you are suffering."
instead i look ahead
separated by a pane of glass and nothing more
i have change
but will not let it go
every red light in this town
forces me to stop
and see
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
evol
the girl brushing the horse
was the girl in the play
the man riding his bike
was my favorite patient
the woman working the counter
was the woman in my yoga class
unfamiliar faces are coming into focus.
this week i recognized
and was recognized
it doesn't feel like home yet
but i am starting to see what it would feel like
if it did
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
secret garden
Saturday, January 15, 2011
oh me oh my oh...
"i wanna do right
but not right now"
what a great lyric GW
this resonates with me lately,
every time i set out to do something that i know is good for me
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
let it out
"every creative act becomes a beacon,
a soul song capable of calling others
to live the truth of who they really are"
linda kohanov
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